Today is my birthday.
I am 54 years old young.
I woke this morning feeling very sad.
This sadness has nothing to do with being another year older.
To me, age is all in how you feel.
I have earned every line, pound, and gray hair I have.
This is why I am sad....
Last night, I floated down a river.
The water was warm, looking very much like milky coffee.
There were lots of people, all having a great day on the water.
I was comfortable even though I didn't know anyone I was floating with.
The river was one I have never seen before.
It was narrow in places and was very unique in that it had tunnels that were almost cave like.
While in the tunnels it was cool,
the water warm,
and light just up ahead proving the coolness would soon be replaced with the sun's warmth.
I felt content,
so many things I love adding to the experience.
Water, the river
floating
the sunshine....and much to my surprise,
floating next to me!
My Mom!!!!
What happiness I felt to have her with me, floating down this new found river.
No words were spoken, her presence was enough.
Then, at a bend in the river it was time to go ashore.
We were walking out of the water and when I turned around she was gone.
I woke this morning with my face and pillow tear stained, and a sadness in my heart.
Not a day goes by that I don't think of her.
In 21 days it will be six years since I have seen her.....
and I sure do miss her.